Wednesday

Boy am i pissed off today, well more than usual. wife's been prevaricating about sending off the mortgage insurance form, and her last ploy was having to go to citizens advice place only open today... They phoned the insurance company but they would give an answer, said they would have to talk to the employer... who will undoubtedly fuck it up just to fuck over someone. So that's doomed, i was doing some mock ups for Hotdogs next sign, and the wife gave me all this crap about the insurance then blithely informed me id spelled bacon wrong, i was so fucking angry i nearly exploded, ripped up the mock ups threw them away and had to go out to the shed and fume, then stand about not talking.....I've just given up nagging her for anything other than cups of tea, she just seems to sail along, which i cant do, i've been screwed too long by the world to trust it to do anything other than worry impotently... i can feel the house going, s;lipping through our fingers and theres nothing i can do at all....i want to scream and shout ...where the fuck are we going to live then fucking hells fuck fuck fuck... but its all futile, everything i do is futile.