Saturday

Been to Morval vintage fair. Always good especialy as the ring commentator is and ex salvage guy. he keeps apologising for smashing so many traction engines and old cars in the 60'S. he was saying he would buy a traction engine for £10 and as gas was too expensive smash them to bits with a huge sledge hammer and sometimes dynamite the boilers to get the apart! Same with the vintage cars!... delayed getting there as we had to retrace our route and go about 20 miles round, due to a car crash. Returning home we saw where it was , seems a car crashed thro the fence and maybe ended up in the river a long fall, the girl in the garage said its was a fatal crash.

Im still feeling prity black but putting a brave face on it, its not fair for wife to suffer the lose and me being so pissed off too. I must admit i dont feel all that jolly or inclined to do things, but i must.

...just found out two young people died, when their car went downthe back and landed upsidedown onthe railway, two others have seriouse head injuries. Is life always surrounded by death or am i just seeing it this way now? If that true how long will i keep seeing death everywhere?...will it be when i die?
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