Monday

the lad and our son are playing "computers" with cardboard boxes on the floor. They have wrecked the front room, things all over the place. Apparently they woke at half four this morning and demanded of the wife that they eat a "midnight feast". they eat yogerts and apples. The wife says she was woken by the sound of the lad eating an apple like a mouse, munch, munch.

Ive semi evacuated the front room, leavening them to it, out in the garden trying to wash the milk spills and stuff out of our big blue rug. mutual friend must be at the court by now, hope its going well.

I cant believe this, call form mutual friend. lads father is contesting the custody.... i just cant believe this, he's an alcoholic, hasn't given any money for his upkeep, hasn't even acknowledged him when he's seen him... oh now he's had his hair cut, moved in with some woman and turned up at court. I fail to comprehend how someone could be so fucking selfish, so ignorant of who they are and fuck im angry about this......... apparently the evil sis and in-law sent a letter to the court, Mutual friends thinks slagging her and partner off, but the magistrate says he didn't know what to think of it and what they were trying to say.... what a fucking cesspit these people have made for the poor lad. He's playing now unaware of this shit flying round. I hope we can keep it that way.

Seem mutual friend, she's pretty shook up. So am i, i feel achey all over from the tension. The father, claims to be a reformed character, and he is quite a nice chap. i always got on with him, tho i, apparently, am more aware of what he is than he is. he's got a new girl friend, who he says he is engaged to (she had three children, older children) and lives with her in same town as me. He wants his lad, now he says he's sorted himself out. Well this is the guy who, wouldn't talk to people who wore glasses, as they might be a "bit cleaver like" who when he was ranting about all gays ought to be killed, was told that Gaylord was gay, (he's about as gay as one can get, and open about it) ranted about gaylords character been defamed. the person that when my Friend couldn't work another day, because she was in agony and couldn't get out of bed, and she asked him for some money to cover the mortgage (£80 a week) sent her £20... once... who never went near her when she was ill, who hasn't asked about the lad from day one.....

The letter from the Devil sis. The magistrate was apparently one of them distant, superior characters, looking down his nose at the letter thro' half moon glasses, he asked if anyone else had seen the letter, and what they made of it, no one had. He said he didn't know what point they were trying to make, indeed what they intended to say. (i presume it was the Sisters work, as she gets loopy).. presently Mutual friend will get a copy and we will see what is in it, what kind of psychopath she really is. At least the father said that he would far rather that the lad went to our mutual friend than "that mad bitch"...... out of this me and mutual friend are agreed, she and me and my wife seem to be the only ones genuinely thinking of the lad and his mums wishes. Everyone else is purely thinking of what they want, and what they need.

The lad would i think if asked say he would love to go live with daddy. For the last couple of years he's has been craving contact with him, to the extent he has fantasised trips to the zoo etc.. with him, told all his school friends and teacher. After a day the novelty would wear off for both of them im sure, what is it he wants for his son? to grow up a pathetic weak alcoholic like his dad, working in the shit tanks of ships down the docks or labouring for builders?.... im so tired of this, so sad, so angry too... that poor lad has lost his mum, and now dark forces circle him on all sides.