still going on

Yesterday got put on rota to stay with our friend on next Tuesday night and wife on Wednesday. Her sis has to go back for a week and arange things. So friends have to stay with her. Its not going to be easy for me, i saw my mum die this way, and it dont get any esier. Shes feeling a little better aprently and the machmillan nurse and Mari Currie Nurses are makeing visits. God they deal with this all day, they must have iron neves, tho i sopose they arnt personaly involved. The mamillan nurse did cry when my mum died, then sat on the bathroom floor empying £800 worth of Diamorphine down the loo (we tried to take it back to the chemist but he wouldnt acept it).... Its been hot today here again. now the sea breaze has dropped and it feel much hotter till it returns going the other direction.

friend seemd to be feeling a little better on phone just now. She has mutual friend and daughter sitting tonight.